So much has happened since last spring--and it is time for an update, some cleaning, and a clear focus for 2012. In the last year, I moved back into my parents house in Florida, landed my first job as a teacher, and was even honored with the nominated Rookie Teacher of the Year for my school. With all of that being said, this year has been one full of blurring transitions.
If I had to name the thing in this world that makes me the most uneasy and turns me into a basket-case--it is change. When there is a change between jobs, change in relationships(romantic or platonic), or even a sudden change of plans--I completely FREAK OUT. I know we are always encourage to leap at opportunities and embrace change, but when you are a control freak like me--the only thing we will be embrace is a pillow in fetal position when there is a change in your world(Yes, I know I have a problem--I'm working on it).
Moving back home was the hardest struggle I think I have had to do so far this year. Leaving my friends and everything that was familiar to me is still difficult. Unfortunately, in this economy the first job you are offered right out of school you leap at. I have been blessed to be welcomed back into a loving home, and I know this change is only temporary and is according to His plan.
The stress of starting a new job right out of school was another big challenge of my life. I half expected this part to be the hardest--but thanks to the good people at USA and the 60K I dished out for my quality education--my first-year of teaching has not been too stressful. Even though my college education is helping, nothing quite prepares you for the day-to-day grind of working full time because that is a change.
I'm am slowly learning to release these grips--the ones I think have on my life--back to the God. I know He will--and always has--had a plan for my life. My problem is letting go of all of my worry long enough to allow myself to trust Him completely. So the struggle continues and so does the clock...
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